tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8267485553223823191.post2204283243845401336..comments2012-03-22T18:10:28.666+02:00Comments on The Schismarch: There's a Miss America, a Miss World, a Miss Universe and there's that girl I MISS. And she beat them all...The Schismarchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05415742745766844699noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8267485553223823191.post-74480090763393003402010-01-16T08:00:31.652+02:002010-01-16T08:00:31.652+02:00One of my -now- closest friends asked me this pecu...One of my -now- closest friends asked me this peculiar thing the first time we ever talked: "Do you draw? Do you play music? Do you write?" I found this to be strange as no one else had ever asked me this before. When I responded and asked why would they ask such a thing, he said "cause you look like the kind of person who has a lot to say and has to get it out of their system". Writing is for me the one moment I can be a real person. There's no point in hiding things or presenting the more politically correct version. It's like being in a dark, quiet room all by myself. To me, it IS a kind of spiritual need. No bullshitting. No thinking what others might think of me. No trying to prove a point. No debating. It's like being a kid and wearing no clothes. You don't feel embarrassed. You don't feel ashamed. You feel free. Vulnerable perhaps, but not afraid of being judged. In everyday life you always have to think of what you say because ultimately you WANT people to react in the way that suits you. And you want people to react in a specific way cause you want something from them. Not my definition of freedom.<br />Love..sigh what HASN'T been said about love? Everything is about love. Everything is a love story in the end. Even war is a love story gone wrong(!) lol. Seriously though, love is probably one of the last things in this world that is still powerful enough to motivate people. The problem is that anything that can motivate people can also be misused, misinterpreted and misunderstood. And I -as many others unfortunately- feel that I've somehow missed the point, that I've taken a wrong turn. And what's worse is that I realise this; I know that I have a lot to learn about myself in regards to this matter. The good news is that I have a lifetime ahead of me. But the thing with love is that mistakes do make you wiser, but also leave a very bad taste which makes future experiences lose some of their original romanticism. Well, we'll see. It's impossible to lose if you don't try. But you can't win either. <br />I always enjoy the music you share with me (apart from that godawful last fb post lol). Paradise Lost was no exception.<br />And something else; I want to thank you because I may BE writing for myself, but at the same time I AM knocking on people's doors. I AM channeling my thoughts through writing in order to communicate with whomever CAN and IS willing to understand. And you -as others who read and respond to what I have to say- giving a damn, means a lot. Who knows... we might meet one day. Who knows... we might meet again after that day too...The Schismarchhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05415742745766844699noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8267485553223823191.post-52390703634899987902010-01-14T00:31:18.302+02:002010-01-14T00:31:18.302+02:00You.. you write this?
It's almost as if a dorm...You.. you write this?<br />It's almost as if a dormant part of my psyche suddenly exploded in a burst of creativity & fine perception. But where I explode with thoughts, you explode with words. Aki, you are a brilliant, highly-perceptive individual and quite the talented writer.<br />Words are thoughts, but not all thoughts are words... and your capability for putting such delicate mental-pieces into words continues to impress me. Hell, it makes me envious even.. to a certain extent. (;<br /><br />Do you know the song "Paradise Lost" by Symphony-X? -In this masterpiece he sings: "Love is a tragedy <br />All that I have, all that I'll ever need <br />Is right here inside<br />Let the winds of freedom be my guide"<br /><br />Only to be countered by a another line, "Love conquers all though heaven's fall..."<br /><br />And indeed, such is the nature of love: ambiguous & contradictory. Such is the case of man himself. Ever since our ancestors have opened their wise&curious eyes we've been taking part in the eternal conflict between emotion & intellect.. Love being the epitome of the human story.<br />If you didn't quite get my point, I promise to elaborate once we talk. Oh.. too many insights & anecdotes to share on that matter. Like you, I too enjoy sinking my teeth into subjects most people would rather not delve deep into, choosing instead to embrace the superficial 'truth' society pushes in their face. Then they turn into those people who "still don't know what they're looking for and still get disappointed in their 30s, 40s and 50s..". As in the case of the subject of love..<br /><br />Mmm.. I so wish we could meet one day and just have a decent conversation. The subject matters little, as we'll be drifting through and through... no more and no less.<br /><br />http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWmEob1VBac&fmt=18D Shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04029326028564875535noreply@blogger.com